Sunday, July 11, 2010

I Believe in Love

So here I am... blogging for really no reason at all. I think it kind of started when I was looking at my friend's blog yesterday involving nail polish. I started wondering what Twitter is like because it's supposed to be a blogging site, or so I think anyway, and I joined it today and somehow ended up on here. I don't know if she blogs on Twitter, but I was just curious about it. Well, it kind of works out because for some reason today after I woke up from my luscious Sunday nap, I felt like my heart was overflowing with things to say and not enough people to say them to. I have friends I could call and I have my sister in the other room, but there is something different about writing my thoughts and feelings out in a way so other people can see them. I do have a journal where I keep all my personal thoughts and stuff, but I thought I might give this a go and see what happens.
I've been doing a lot of thinking this week, which seems funny to me, because it's actually been a really busy week but I've done more thinking than a lot of less crowded weeks. I started my Intro to Theological Education class in the end of June and I've been reading books, answering discussion questions, working a lot, trying to workout, and getting things together with my apartment and my financial aid. But, the theme in my class this week, was Who Am I in Christ? I do believe that I'm a daughter of God made in His image, He has extravagant, unconditional love for me and has an amazing plan for my life than exceeds anything I could dream up or do on my own. But, I've also been thinking about who am I period? I've been learning to place my identity in Christ because it is the only thing that will never change or leave me. It's been so interesting to move to a new place and begin creating my identity again. Ultimately, I believe in placing my identity in Christ, but there are other places that I tend to put my identity in as well. Let's see, I'm a daughter, sister, Caribou Coffee employee, serious coffee drinker, Christian, friend, Buckeye, student, woman... the list goes on from there. The one thing I desire most right now is to be able to place wife on the list. I'm not too worried about it though since I know who gave me my desires and who wants to fulfill them.

Anyway, I think it's good to talk about what you believe. It makes me put into words what I believe and if I really know what I believe. Another thing I've been thinking about a lot lately is love. All forms of it from loving people I don't really know, my co-workers, my friends and family and eventually a significant other. Love is such a powerful thing. I've never been in love with a man, but I am in love with Jesus and He loves me too and that's such a moving, powerful love. It's a love that satisfies me down to the depths of my soul and accepts me completely for who I really am, the good and the bad. Sometimes I really wonder how people can twist Christianity so much. When they stand on street corners and yell at people about how they are sinning and this and that and judge them, when Jesus says to love everyone no matter what. Judging is exactly what we're not supposed to do. Really, loving people is what it's all about. It's not always easy at all, but I'm not expected to do this on my own. When Jesus asks me to do something, he provides the strength, power, courage and ability to do it. I feel like this is turning into a sermon, oops, that's not what it's meant to be.

I'm not sure what else I feel like writing about on here. I'm just glad that life is going well, my family and friends are healthy and doing pretty well and Jesus is working in my life and I'm coming back to Him after slipping a little bit. I'm getting settled in a new place, but also in my heart and mind. Hm, peace, love and a little bit of Jesus while drinking some coffee is what I need in this life.

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